Sad and Depressed…

Feeling sad and blue and lonely. All I want to do is curl up and resolve issues but it is not easy !!! If it was , would have done that long back. Some things and circumstances are beyond our control.

Life has been hectic, sad and stressful all at once. This week I have felt busy and listless and remorseful. I do not know why !!! I can’t make sense of the feeling of stressed.And being so fed up and defeated and unable to muster inspiration or resolve on this rainy gloomy day..

Supporting a depressed love one while taking care of oneself is one heck of a task. It is becoming overwhelming…

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Anger – Why us ??

via Daily Prompt: Bewildered

It has angered and bewildered me many times in the past one year to wonder why us ?? What did we do to deserve this.. Have channelled my energy in seeking answers and yet have found one and only thing that has soothed my bewildered gut- PRAYERS.

And maybe it has come from watching my mother who is 83 now.

I  have watched her since I was little girl. My mom pray with sincerity every single day without fail. Many a times the going got tough and yet she never wavered. Have seen her battle the worst (my dad battling cancer, my handicapped brother acting up , socially ostracized etc) and  she is a living example of how  faith and prayers keep one going.

While it has been far from easy, I have witnessed that faith and belief, knowing that we don’t run this world and knowing that there are reasons and a purpose behind what we see, has helped us through….. But sometimes in my bewildered state have asked HIM “why ???” Why does a beautiful girl (inside and out) suffer a life from a fractured mind ?? I guess it is his way of  teaching me and giving me new insights to LIFE.

As I’ve prayed through the sufferings of my  family , I’ve discovered that prayer isn’t so much a mystery to be bewildered with as it is the anchor to be secured by. Prayer, indeed, is the tether that ties us to the only One who is loving enough to listen compassionately, the only One wise enough to answer rightly, the only One mighty enough to respond.

Inspiration from a bend in the road

For most of my life, I have believed that because things have been a certain way for a long time that they will continue to be that way, forever and ever …. The truth is, I know NOTHING.Things could change for better or for worse in an instant.  A lesson I have learnt in the last one year .

To me, a bend in the road symbolizes a change in direction.  Births, deaths, illness, triumphs, defeats, all bends along the path called LIFE.  In life, there are seldom clear-cut beginnings, yet there are moments when fate intersects with our daily lives, setting in motion a sequence of events whose outcome we could never have foreseen.

I don’t know what lies around this bend, but I’m going to believe that the best does ….. ( From Anne of Green Gables)

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What do I cherish about 2017 ??

via Daily Prompt: Cherish

What do I cherish the most in the year 2017 ????

It has been a stormy year and one I weathered pretty well. Even though the sailing was pretty tough I came in and out of it pretty strong. I learnt a LOT !!!

NO matter how hard life gets one has to keep smiling. Have learnt to cherish those small moments of pure bliss …

Between the chaos and the mess, between the yelling and crying, some instinct is telling me to hold on. So much of the day is about survival, about getting through unscathed. I multitask, I panic, and I inevitably fail at least once a day. Yet I have been holding on..

I spend days dreaming about her future and yet on other days I am content in knowing that things though moving slowly are moving in the right direction ???

She is everything I’ve ever wanted and not wanted. She is a bundle of extremities and I need to open this bundle with extreme caution not breaking any threads and bringing it back to its perfect form sooner or later. Life is fragile and one needs to handle it with care …

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