Transcience

I am always dumbstruck watching Sunrises and sunsets.. They have a striking capacity to make us feel simultaneously insignificant and elevated. The aesthetic experience of watching a beautiful sunrise /sunset evokes wonder and awe at nature’s grandeur entry and exit everyday. It’s like turning a page…

The light of the setting  sun casts the world in a gentle, warm orange/purple glow, I think the wavelength of the light could be an important part of our enjoyment.

For those inclined toward deep sensory appreciation, it paints the world with ever shifting shadows that mask and highlight different parts of our surroundings we may not  have noticed otherwise ….

In other words a ” guaranteed show stopper”

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23 Years back …

It has been 23 years since we settled in the USA.

We landed in Pittsburgh on a cold evening (blizzard) on Feb 4th 1995. We had to stay a couple of  days in a hotel (Best Western ) due to the heavy snowfall and finally were transported by a friend to Marietta,Ohio on Feb 6th 1995. Our life literally started in this small town in an apartment complex called -Rivercrest Village ,County House Lane.

My husband worked for a chemical plant in WV (Sistersville) @ OSI specialities as Database administrator. We had a bunch of Indian friends who were pretty much all our age and had moved to this land of opportunity and worked for the same chemical plant. We became best pals and spent our time on weekends exploring America. This was when the IT (information technology) wave started !!

We bought our first car (Dodge Neon) and learnt how to drive . Welcomed Sanjana our first child  in Parkersburg a neighboring town in West Virginia (Camden Clark memorial Hospital) and learnt the nitty gritty details of life in America.

Since then have moved and lived in different cities all over the USA. Time flies and yet I have wonderful memories of this small town and how naive I was when I first moved to the US. I was newly married and it was an amazing journey discovering the joys of marital bliss and also a new country about which I had simply read in the countless novels back in India.

I am not sure if moving to the USA was the best decision but YES it has taught me a lot and I am still learning.A DEEP current of history runs through this quiet town of 15,000 nestled in the arms of the Ohio and Muskingum Rivers. Here are some pictures I downloaded from Google of this small and historic town.

 

Inspiration from a bend in the road

For most of my life, I have believed that because things have been a certain way for a long time that they will continue to be that way, forever and ever …. The truth is, I know NOTHING.Things could change for better or for worse in an instant.  A lesson I have learnt in the last one year .

To me, a bend in the road symbolizes a change in direction.  Births, deaths, illness, triumphs, defeats, all bends along the path called LIFE.  In life, there are seldom clear-cut beginnings, yet there are moments when fate intersects with our daily lives, setting in motion a sequence of events whose outcome we could never have foreseen.

I don’t know what lies around this bend, but I’m going to believe that the best does ….. ( From Anne of Green Gables)

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Have a tendency (proclivity) to dwelve into the past :(

via Daily Prompt: Proclivity

What is the best way to not look into the past  ??? How does one move forward without any pain whatsoever. A couple of things have helped me –

Prayers

Meditation

Hobbies

And my work.

Unless I am completely busy the old thoughts come rolling back. They negate all my hard work and I fall back into a hopeless pit.. Embracing midlife can be a daunting task especially when you have a special needs child. And creating a work life balance makes it harder.The  tendency to work  harder when under stress due to several reasons narrows the focus and short-circuits the very habits that helps me cope……

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Inner Calling

The time has come where I need to listen to my inner voice/calling  and start to meditate and focus on spirituality. Life has not been easy these past few months .The quality of life has been declining and most times I am stressed and feel nervous about the future.

But I have also realized that to have a better future I should work on my present moments. Just speculating on what might happen and worrying about the unknown is getting me nowhere. All it is doing is taking away my precious PRESENT !!! It is  freezing me from performing what is needed.

I need to sit relax and meditate on a plan of action for what is at stake currently and challenge myself  to do my best. The rest I need to leave and not worry about as said in Bhagawad Geetha :

“Karmanye Vadhikaraste

Maa Phaleshu Kadachana,

Maa Karma Phala Hetur Bhur

Maa Te Sangostva Akarmani”

 Chapter 2, Sloka 47

Meaning -You have the right to perform your actions, but you are not entitled to the fruits of the actions.
Do not let the fruit be the purpose of your actions, and therefore you won’t be attached to not doing your duty….

CARE DEEPLY but not to the point of being blinded by love leading to inaction.

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via Daily Prompt: Calling

 

STAY CALM

The true meaning of the life lies gently beneath the surface . Our challenges are what help  define us  as a person and what guides us to becoming who we are . What greater challenge can there be than staying calm under tremendous pressure ??  More so, if that is our own fear , anxiety, depression, desolation, and despair….

FAITH and HOPE are the two ingredients  that help us cross the cruel and endless sea of life.

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TONE DOWN…

This could mean several things . But in this instance I mean tone down ones expectations. Age certainly has helped me  tone down the lofty expectations I had, but they have never fully disappeared…

It is one of those things that is like a heavy baggage that one carries around all the time.If we allow expectations to determine the happiness we feel in regards to a certain situation, the chances that we will be satisfied are slim.

In all reality, if things always happened the way we hoped or expected, life would be utterly predictable and completely unexciting. The possibilities in life are endless, but if we are resistant to letting life unfold as it is meant to, we tend to paint unexpected occurrences in a negative light…..

Let go !!!!!  Holding on  to expectations goes against life’s flow. It makes reality unbearable when it doesn’t need to be…

Managing ones expectations is key to happiness.

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