Anger – Why us ??

via Daily Prompt: Bewildered

It has angered and bewildered me many times in the past one year to wonder why us ?? What did we do to deserve this.. Have channelled my energy in seeking answers and yet have found one and only thing that has soothed my bewildered gut- PRAYERS.

And maybe it has come from watching my mother who is 83 now.

I  have watched her since I was little girl. My mom pray with sincerity every single day without fail. Many a times the going got tough and yet she never wavered. Have seen her battle the worst (my dad battling cancer, my handicapped brother acting up , socially ostracized etc) and  she is a living example of how  faith and prayers keep one going.

While it has been far from easy, I have witnessed that faith and belief, knowing that we don’t run this world and knowing that there are reasons and a purpose behind what we see, has helped us through….. But sometimes in my bewildered state have asked HIM “why ???” Why does a beautiful girl (inside and out) suffer a life from a fractured mind ?? I guess it is his way of  teaching me and giving me new insights to LIFE.

As I’ve prayed through the sufferings of my  family , I’ve discovered that prayer isn’t so much a mystery to be bewildered with as it is the anchor to be secured by. Prayer, indeed, is the tether that ties us to the only One who is loving enough to listen compassionately, the only One wise enough to answer rightly, the only One mighty enough to respond.


Inner Calling

The time has come where I need to listen to my inner voice/calling  and start to meditate and focus on spirituality. Life has not been easy these past few months .The quality of life has been declining and most times I am stressed and feel nervous about the future.

But I have also realized that to have a better future I should work on my present moments. Just speculating on what might happen and worrying about the unknown is getting me nowhere. All it is doing is taking away my precious PRESENT !!! It is  freezing me from performing what is needed.

I need to sit relax and meditate on a plan of action for what is at stake currently and challenge myself  to do my best. The rest I need to leave and not worry about as said in Bhagawad Geetha :

“Karmanye Vadhikaraste

Maa Phaleshu Kadachana,

Maa Karma Phala Hetur Bhur

Maa Te Sangostva Akarmani”

 Chapter 2, Sloka 47

Meaning -You have the right to perform your actions, but you are not entitled to the fruits of the actions.
Do not let the fruit be the purpose of your actions, and therefore you won’t be attached to not doing your duty….

CARE DEEPLY but not to the point of being blinded by love leading to inaction.


via Daily Prompt: Calling



This could mean several things . But in this instance I mean tone down ones expectations. Age certainly has helped me  tone down the lofty expectations I had, but they have never fully disappeared…

It is one of those things that is like a heavy baggage that one carries around all the time.If we allow expectations to determine the happiness we feel in regards to a certain situation, the chances that we will be satisfied are slim.

In all reality, if things always happened the way we hoped or expected, life would be utterly predictable and completely unexciting. The possibilities in life are endless, but if we are resistant to letting life unfold as it is meant to, we tend to paint unexpected occurrences in a negative light…..

Let go !!!!!  Holding on  to expectations goes against life’s flow. It makes reality unbearable when it doesn’t need to be…

Managing ones expectations is key to happiness.


Tamil New Year -2017

Today is the tamizh new year.  Every new year has a new name to it and this year it is called “Hevilambi “. It is celebrated on the first day of the Hindu Solar Calendar(Chitirai maasam/month). Popularly known as Puthandu,  Tamil New Year which usually falls on April 14th is an occasion that calls for celebration for Tamils all over the world. This is supposedly the day when Lord Brahma (the Creator of the world, according to Hindu mythology) started creation. People exchange greetings of ‘Puthandu Vazthukal’ (Happy New Year) with great fervor on this day.

The highlight of Tamil New Year Festival  among the tamil speaking people is the food . No festival is ever complete without an assortment of dishes .’Maanga Pachadi’ (a dish made of raw mangoes, jaggery and neem flowers) is the special dish of the day, which tastes sweet, salty, spicy , sour and bitter at the same time. This favorite dish of mine symbolizes  – LIFE which is a mixed bag of these flavorsnew.


On a cold morning at the duck pond on E Ridgewood Ave. It was stunning looking at all things frozen in time except for people doing their walks with their pets or by themselves.With the sun shining brightly it cast a blue on the snowed in lake and gave it an ethereal look.

Going through some tough time and choices in life. I was reminded of the song from frozen. I am not someone who breaks down quickly. Once upon a time I was the most sensitive girl you would have ever met. But with passing of years( a nicer way of saying I am aging 🙂 … ) challenges have made me stronger and give me the “Do not care” attitude to life”

Here are a few lines from the frozen song “LET IT GO.. “that came to my mind…

My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back
The past is in the past

Let it go, let it go
And I’ll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone
Here I stand in the light of day
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway

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