Feeling sad and blue and lonely. All I want to do is curl up and resolve issues but it is not easy !!! If it was , would have done that long back. Some things and circumstances are beyond our control.
Life has been hectic, sad and stressful all at once. This week I have felt busy and listless and remorseful. I do not know why !!! I can’t make sense of the feeling of stressed.And being so fed up and defeated and unable to muster inspiration or resolve on this rainy gloomy day..
Supporting a depressed love one while taking care of oneself is one heck of a task. It is becoming overwhelming…
via Daily Prompt: Bewildered
It has angered and bewildered me many times in the past one year to wonder why us ?? What did we do to deserve this.. Have channelled my energy in seeking answers and yet have found one and only thing that has soothed my bewildered gut- PRAYERS.
And maybe it has come from watching my mother who is 83 now.
I have watched her since I was little girl. My mom pray with sincerity every single day without fail. Many a times the going got tough and yet she never wavered. Have seen her battle the worst (my dad battling cancer, my handicapped brother acting up , socially ostracized etc) and she is a living example of how faith and prayers keep one going.
While it has been far from easy, I have witnessed that faith and belief, knowing that we don’t run this world and knowing that there are reasons and a purpose behind what we see, has helped us through….. But sometimes in my bewildered state have asked HIM “why ???” Why does a beautiful girl (inside and out) suffer a life from a fractured mind ?? I guess it is his way of teaching me and giving me new insights to LIFE.
As I’ve prayed through the sufferings of my family , I’ve discovered that prayer isn’t so much a mystery to be bewildered with as it is the anchor to be secured by. Prayer, indeed, is the tether that ties us to the only One who is loving enough to listen compassionately, the only One wise enough to answer rightly, the only One mighty enough to respond.
via Daily Prompt: Enroll
How true !!! Where and how do we enroll to resolve all our life issues ?? Of late I have lost track of the surge of problems in my personal life. It includes my extended family in India. I wonder where do I get the necessary skills to resolve these issues …
With all the fancy technology available at our fingertips these days we should be sailing smooth in the sea of life. Yet we are all completely lost especially when it comes to dealing with our mind vs heart . There is no magic robot/tech that can give us ready made answers for dealing with matters of mind and heart. We have to wade through the tough times and make decisions as we go as there is no set of rules that all of us can follow … To each his own.
There are definitely no courses one can take. Enroll and connect with your own inner guidance.Now imagine yourself finding whatever it is that brought you to this inquiry. What does it feel like? Are you ready for this level of transformation in your life? Tune into your deepest heart’s desire… trust that you hold all the answers you need within.
As always, let your heart guide you !!
For most of my life, I have believed that because things have been a certain way for a long time that they will continue to be that way, forever and ever …. The truth is, I know NOTHING.Things could change for better or for worse in an instant. A lesson I have learnt in the last one year .
To me, a bend in the road symbolizes a change in direction. Births, deaths, illness, triumphs, defeats, all bends along the path called LIFE. In life, there are seldom clear-cut beginnings, yet there are moments when fate intersects with our daily lives, setting in motion a sequence of events whose outcome we could never have foreseen.
I don’t know what lies around this bend, but I’m going to believe that the best does ….. ( From Anne of Green Gables)
via Daily Prompt: Cherish
What do I cherish the most in the year 2017 ????
It has been a stormy year and one I weathered pretty well. Even though the sailing was pretty tough I came in and out of it pretty strong. I learnt a LOT !!!
NO matter how hard life gets one has to keep smiling. Have learnt to cherish those small moments of pure bliss …
Between the chaos and the mess, between the yelling and crying, some instinct is telling me to hold on. So much of the day is about survival, about getting through unscathed. I multitask, I panic, and I inevitably fail at least once a day. Yet I have been holding on..
I spend days dreaming about her future and yet on other days I am content in knowing that things though moving slowly are moving in the right direction ???
She is everything I’ve ever wanted and not wanted. She is a bundle of extremities and I need to open this bundle with extreme caution not breaking any threads and bringing it back to its perfect form sooner or later. Life is fragile and one needs to handle it with care …
The time has come where I need to listen to my inner voice/calling and start to meditate and focus on spirituality. Life has not been easy these past few months .The quality of life has been declining and most times I am stressed and feel nervous about the future.
But I have also realized that to have a better future I should work on my present moments. Just speculating on what might happen and worrying about the unknown is getting me nowhere. All it is doing is taking away my precious PRESENT !!! It is freezing me from performing what is needed.
I need to sit relax and meditate on a plan of action for what is at stake currently and challenge myself to do my best. The rest I need to leave and not worry about as said in Bhagawad Geetha :
Maa Phaleshu Kadachana,
Maa Karma Phala Hetur Bhur
Maa Te Sangostva Akarmani”
Chapter 2, Sloka 47
Meaning -You have the right to perform your actions, but you are not entitled to the fruits of the actions.
Do not let the fruit be the purpose of your actions, and therefore you won’t be attached to not doing your duty….
CARE DEEPLY but not to the point of being blinded by love leading to inaction.
via Daily Prompt: Calling
The true meaning of the life lies gently beneath the surface . Our challenges are what help define us as a person and what guides us to becoming who we are . What greater challenge can there be than staying calm under tremendous pressure ?? More so, if that is our own fear , anxiety, depression, desolation, and despair….
FAITH and HOPE are the two ingredients that help us cross the cruel and endless sea of life.
This could mean several things . But in this instance I mean tone down ones expectations. Age certainly has helped me tone down the lofty expectations I had, but they have never fully disappeared…
It is one of those things that is like a heavy baggage that one carries around all the time.If we allow expectations to determine the happiness we feel in regards to a certain situation, the chances that we will be satisfied are slim.
In all reality, if things always happened the way we hoped or expected, life would be utterly predictable and completely unexciting. The possibilities in life are endless, but if we are resistant to letting life unfold as it is meant to, we tend to paint unexpected occurrences in a negative light…..
Let go !!!!! Holding on to expectations goes against life’s flow. It makes reality unbearable when it doesn’t need to be…
Managing ones expectations is key to happiness.
Today is the tamizh new year. Every new year has a new name to it and this year it is called “Hevilambi “. It is celebrated on the first day of the Hindu Solar Calendar(Chitirai maasam/month). Popularly known as Puthandu, Tamil New Year which usually falls on April 14th is an occasion that calls for celebration for Tamils all over the world. This is supposedly the day when Lord Brahma (the Creator of the world, according to Hindu mythology) started creation. People exchange greetings of ‘Puthandu Vazthukal’ (Happy New Year) with great fervor on this day.
The highlight of Tamil New Year Festival among the tamil speaking people is the food . No festival is ever complete without an assortment of dishes .’Maanga Pachadi’ (a dish made of raw mangoes, jaggery and neem flowers) is the special dish of the day, which tastes sweet, salty, spicy , sour and bitter at the same time. This favorite dish of mine symbolizes – LIFE which is a mixed bag of these flavors.