via Daily Prompt: Bewildered
It has angered and bewildered me many times in the past one year to wonder why us ?? What did we do to deserve this.. Have channelled my energy in seeking answers and yet have found one and only thing that has soothed my bewildered gut- PRAYERS.
And maybe it has come from watching my mother who is 83 now.
I have watched her since I was little girl. My mom pray with sincerity every single day without fail. Many a times the going got tough and yet she never wavered. Have seen her battle the worst (my dad battling cancer, my handicapped brother acting up , socially ostracized etc) and she is a living example of how faith and prayers keep one going.
While it has been far from easy, I have witnessed that faith and belief, knowing that we don’t run this world and knowing that there are reasons and a purpose behind what we see, has helped us through….. But sometimes in my bewildered state have asked HIM “why ???” Why does a beautiful girl (inside and out) suffer a life from a fractured mind ?? I guess it is his way of teaching me and giving me new insights to LIFE.
As I’ve prayed through the sufferings of my family , I’ve discovered that prayer isn’t so much a mystery to be bewildered with as it is the anchor to be secured by. Prayer, indeed, is the tether that ties us to the only One who is loving enough to listen compassionately, the only One wise enough to answer rightly, the only One mighty enough to respond.
My first visit to a church happened when I was eight and attending elementary school in India. Our school took us on a trip to a sugar plant in Meerut , a small town about 100 miles away from New Delhi .There is also a very famous church in a nearby town called Sardhana. Our school being a Private Hindu School was very secular in character and we were taken to this church to learn more about all religions. It was called Basilica of Our Lady of Graces, also known as Churches among the Churches, dedicated to virgin Mary. The Church was built by begum Samru , a girl of 14 who married a European mercenary soldier Walter. Samru converted to Roman Catholicism and adopted the name Joanna Nobilis. She ruled the Principality of Sardhana in 18th and 19th century. The Church is the largest in North India.
My fascination for visiting churches never stopped after that. I am a stoic Hindu yet ready to embrace all religions.There is so much to learn from every culture.My view on religion is to expand the personal and cultural lens through which we see the world to evolve a shared view of humanity.
Ken Folletts book ” The pillars of the earth ” was the final push I needed to visit many more churches . The novel is based on the building of a cathedrals in the fictional town of Kings bridge, England. The story backdrop is set in the middle of the 12th century ( a historical book that traces the development of Gothic architecture out of the preceding Romansque architecture, and the fortunes of the Kingsbridge priory .An amazing and must read for history lovers.
Sometime in this 365 day journey I will post the interiors of the churches that exist in Ridgewood..